I feel bad

when I go out and then sleep all day because my dad hella wonders where im at . lol .

—alexandra<3

Home

finally lol 
random night i guess 
karl picked me and kayla up
went to the club 
dennis is freaking hilarious while drunk 
dont impersonate lady gaga if you don’t know the lyrics
dance dance
me and kayla went to julian and mihkael’s place
“napped” there
left at like 7 30am 
homebound
good night kids.

—alexandra<3

It's a mistake to assume the worst too quickly , find the deeper meaning . That's what keeps you in the flow.

—TheDailyLove

First Semester of College

Classes are DONE . Thank goodness that its over because I was not feeling this semester whatsoever . I just have finals next week then I”m officially done with my first semester of college .

—alexandra<3

Why cheat ?

On your lover that is . Personally , I know many who have cheated on their boyfriend/girlfriend . There are different types of cheating to me , physically , emotionally , etc . But really , why do we do ?

Honestly , I am guilty of cheating myself . Not physically but emotionally . I had a boyfriend but then started to get feelings for another guy . But in my situation its was just reopening feelings that used to be there , my “old flame” . I was hanging out with him and didn’t even want to tell him I was with someone because I wanted him to still be there for me in different types of ways . I eventually told him I was with someone and it didn’t change anything . But then that “old flame” crossed the line which was totally unacceptable to me and made me realize that i don’t like him . I have my boyfriend and I don’t need anyone else . The worst thing is that my boyfriend at the time was kinda uncomfortable with my “old flame” and after we broke up he thought that he’d try to get with me . I feel like I got a bit of karma from it . Because I knew what it was wrong but I could not stop myself from doing what I was doing , I was stupid and ashamed .

I think we cheat for our own selfish reasons . Well for me at least . That “old flame” was my best friend but I could feel off his vibe that he liked me and I liked the feeling of him liking me even though I shouldn’t have because my boyfriend loved me . I think we get too distracted by our own self indulges that we forget what we really believe in . Thankfully my morals stood in front of me before anything bad happened and they will always stand before me in any situation like this .

I just want to understand why others cheat ? I’ve seen it too many times . Is my conscious guiltier than others ? I know everyone has there morals . But I am just curious as to what goes through their mind while they are doing what they are doing .

—alexandra<3

Why do I keep having dreams of you ?

Do I miss you that much ? Are you what my conscious really wants ? In my dreams we are just happily together . When in reality its really not like that . I know what I want . But “we all want what we can’t have” right ? I feel like its more of a we all want who we can’t have .

—alexandra<3

leave the crowd, stand apart , ignore your head and follow your heart

suplove:

williamliuser:

nnnancy:(via johnyr)

Bliss is having your arms wrapped around a lover, hearing the steady rhythm of his breathing, feeling the rise and fall of his chest, burying your head into his chest, and taking in the familiar scents of him all night long.

suplove:

meesme:

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